Asking the Aspens



there were times in the middle when 
I held you between my thoughts
like when you burned all your paintings in the backyard 
couldn’t be stopped
or how you hammered up a ladder to summit the roof
and dean held the nails
there were times in the middle 
when I loved you heavy and soft

we were way too stoned to stand
but we made it to the top
you were holding both my hands 
and tryna pull me up

cause I was 10 then I was 15
then I was yesterday afternoon
I was hanging from the feeling 
that someday you would bloom
just asking the aspens to grow a boy like you
just asking the aspens to grow a boy like you


there were times in the middle when I held you
and it felt like snow
you’re the only kind of weather so weightless
I can’t feel when I’ve let you go
and there you aren’t in any of it
hanging sideways like a tree
in the hillside of last summer
in the hillside of a memory 

we were way too stoned to stand
but we made it to the top
you were holding both my hands 
and tryna pull me up

cause I was 10 then I was 15
then I was yesterday afternoon
I was hanging from the feeling 
that someday you would bloom
just asking the aspens to grow a boy like you
I keep asking the aspens to grow a boy like you

(extended original lyrics)

there were times in the middle when I 
shouted you between my faults
like in that empty chinese restaurant 
where you taught me how to break a heart
nihilism isn’t real old dear
your scale is just wrong
even the word insignificance
has significance
at least in this song

Cause I was 10 then I was 15
Then I was yesterday afternoon
I was hanging from the instinct 
That someday you would bloom
Just asking the aspens to grow a boy like you
Just asking the aspens to grow a boy like you

lyrics written during the years 2015, 2016, 2017 by Kathleen, with some edits by Dan Nigro in 2017

Produced by Dan Nigro, Ariel Rechtshaid and Noah Conrad



Video directed, filmed and edited by Kathleen in 2020